Reflecting, Improving, Growing

I’m not the type of person to be absolutely shocked by the coming of a new month, and I actually can’t recall a time where that was the case… before August 2018. This Summer has gone by unbelievably quick, and I’m not sure if its because I’m preparing to go off to my first year of college, or if everyone is feeling the same. However, I am sure of the fact that I’m amazed move in day is in thirteen days.

This particular milestone marks high school coming to an abrupt halt, and to anyone still in high school reading this— cherish however much time you have left! It’s going to fly by, and there will be fun times you’ll miss, but of course there will be reasons why you’re happy it’s over as well. Be prepared for extreme nostalgia but also brace yourself for gratitude that its finally over. 

With all of this being said, I’m going to reflect on each month of the year that has already passed… and honestly, whats a good reflection without self improvement? I’m going to add a personal goal for each of the months’ based on what could’ve been improved for that particular month. Let’s go.

JANUARY. I know I’m not the only who felt like the first month of 2018 lasted for an unfathomable amount of time. It was excruciating. With all that “extra” time, it would have been beneficial for me to spend it growing, reflecting, and manifesting. (Here is a link to one of my favorite YouTuber’s ultimate guide to manifestation— something that I’m going to cover on this blog very shortly!) With that being said, I’m working extremely hard on gratitude, manifestation, and reflection— just a few things that I should’ve been practicing in order to get my year started off on the right foot. 

FEBRUARY. This month was simply forgettable. Nothing out of the ordinary happened, except for the Eagles winning the Super Bowl… #gobirds. But for myself, this month was just brutally cold and bland. I wish I would’ve spent this time indoors reading more, and working on things to be productive but I definitely just spent it watching YouTube videos, and scrolling through Twitter. Reading is something that can (and should) be incorporated into my life currently,  which is why I’m including it as a current goal of mine. 

MARCH. March was an eye opening month, for quite a few reasons. I was coming to terms with the person I was transforming into, and I was accepting the things in my life of which I could not change. This month I wish I would’ve dedicated more time to my own personal mental health, and all the anxiety that encompassed my mind pretty much 24/7. 

APRIL. April is my birthday month, which for most people is their favorite month of the year, but for me it’s usually a little underwhelming and overwhelming… however that’s possible. Without going too into depth on why I have such conflicting emotions and how that exists in my own little world, I wish I would’ve seriously stopped to think about how I’ve changed since my last birthday. I became one year older, and ~hopefully~ one year wiser, and I wish I would’ve used that knowledge in the subsequent months, but from here on out, one of my biggest goals is to use my previous experiences (positive and negative) and use it to better myself.

MAY. May was filled with lasts in my high school, and I was both pleased and sentimental. My senior year was a rollercoaster of emotions, and part of me was full of regret that I didn’t make the most out of it, but another part of me was happy with the growth that I did allow myself to do. A goal of mine from here on out is to make the most of every situation, and to allow myself to be sad sometimes. In high school, I had a serious issue with bottling up emotions and not allow myself to come face to face with the bad emotions— only the good, which is something that completely blew up in my face not weeks after graduating.

JUNE. June was the beginning of the most transformative Summer of my life. This Summer was spent learning about myself and who I am, and who I want to be. I spent a lot of time writing, which is an amazing feeling. I had pretty much no responsibilities and was able to focus on something I’m truly passionate about— writing. However, I wish I would’ve even worked harder on the self-growth aspect of my life, and really developed some good habits, such as eating cleaner, working out more, and taking more time just to myself.

JULY. Honestly, the month of July was spent alone and working on everything that led up to making this blog. I was doing a lot of research on platforms, reading a lot of other peoples’ work for inspiration, and overall, I wish I would’ve spent more time disconnected from my phone, especially when people are talking to me. Being distracted when people are talking to me is honestly something I’m embarrassed to admit that I do/ have done. It’s a huge pet peeve of mine when people do it to me, so I am trying my best not to do it to others. 

AUGUST. Ah, the busy month of August. Filled with back to school shopping, babysitting, and 30 hour work weeks, it’s been hard to find time for anything else devoted to only myself. But using these things as a distraction from moving away from home in a few weeks is okay. I’m so beyond anxious to leave home, but I’m excited to see where the future takes me. This month I’m all about saving money, and really working hard to show myself what I’m made of!!

So, what does this all mean? These reflections show that every month, no matter how good or bad, there is always room for improvement. I’m trying to use all of the goals for each month and incorporate them into my everyday life, and I’m going to document my progress on this blog! Always remember there is a such thing as getting better and worse at the same time.

All my love,

XO Chloe.

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